Assuming I am going to live 100 years at the most, one quarter of my life is alrady gone. Left is 75%. I would like to spend the rest of them listening to my parents. I am starting to believe that whatever they tell me to do is really for my own benefits. I would also like to get more focussed as my classes get harder and demand more time for lengthy readings.
I haven’t really accomplished many things during the past 5 years or so! That’s what I would say if looked from the perspectives that I hold during those years. But now I am realizing I did accomplish many things besides hard objective things; my way of thinking has matured to an extent where I am able to stop myself from reaching the angry boiling point. I seem to understand other people more and can give reasoning why so and so is this and that. I couldn’t do that before. I only wish I would have listened bit more rationally to the advices my parents used to give me. That’s the only regret of my life. I hope I can be a good son forever and able to serve them.
I ended up lending away $540 to someone and as usual I didn’t expected to get it back in complete. But this time I didn’t get a single dollar back, atleast not yet. However, I am happy to claim the $1200 bonus I recieved with the paycheck.
I wanted to write about this for the last few days or so, but because of time constraint I haven’t been able to. So this is Coming Up – b4 I forget.
- ok so here I go. I think our inner self is the real us. We can fake to look good outside, but it is pretty much impossible to fake our inner feelings such as stress and happiness. Technology has reached to a point where it can sense how our inner body (mental and physical) physiological process. Polygraph is a good example.
But anyways, I think there are two situations during which we end up showing our inner self even when we don’t want to. Those two are – happiness and unhappiness. When we are happy, we can’t resist what we are going through in our mind and reveal our inner feelings consequently. Similarly, when we are unhappy with something, we end up showing our stress and sadness – no matter how hard we try to keep it inside.
Now this one is no doubt pretty much inarguable. Everything has to be done on a limit, else something happens – lose interest, effectiveness and the thing itself. I was thinking about my work, which I had to call in “sick” today. I wasn’t sick, atleast not physically. But I was emotionally getting overwhelmed for the amount of hours I put at work, while putting some of my remaining hours for my school courses. I feel relieved. Although I kinda feel like I gave in, but I think it is worth taking time off. Better save my sanity sane for the benefit of myself and the society – society already has enough of insane acts to deal with every day.
Kinds hard to believe that the time has passed by that quick. School started 3 days ago, and didn’t even realize that I had few assignments that I already submitted. I think it is because my mind has been busy at work mostly. And when not working, I am sleeping. Happy though that the time is going by, just wish some more free time to focus on textbooks. Hopefully soon. I will see what I can do.
I am glad I have finally reached to a point where I don’t desire for the thing that seemed pretty much not obtainable for me – because the owner doesn’t want to. Today I let the owner know I am not anymore interested in that. Both of us should feel relieved now – I know I am.
If you think you are very smart, most likely you are less smart than that. And if you think you are very dumb, most likely you are less than that, too.
The thing is we tend to exaggerate things a little bit. Also we intend to think of us as possesing better qualities than we do in real. There are always an exception however, everywhere and in everything – including in this very statement itself.
I m just ready to fall asleep but just thought I should put down how happy I have been feeling the past few days for almost everything seem to be falling in places where I want them.
But I can’t be complacent, only feel satisfied to an extent that will motivate me further to achieve things that I am capable of.
I know everybody thinks they are this and that – but in my case I have limited myself way down in the field, so the only way for me is up. But I have to be determined, else will remained in the ground level.
To me happiness is more of a long term and continuous, while pleasure is a short term. Happiness would me, for example, when I help take someone to the bathroom with respect and sense of responsibility, that person eventually feels so thankful at the end. That gives me happiness. Happiness not because someone feels or says thank you to me, but because that person was satisfied by my act of kindness. I will always be able to feel good and happy about how I lended my hand to a person who is in need.
Pleasure on the other hand, lack that sense of long term satisfaction. It is a short term. For instance, drinking alcohol makes some people feel good for that moment. But once that alcohol effect wears off, you come back to normal; that satisfaction/pleasure is not anymore present there. Sometimes I feel like pleasure seems to fall in the negative category.